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My name is Robin. This is me. I'm 51 now - 5 years after I started this blog. I am an adoptive mom In an open non monogamous marriage, and enjoy my sex life more than I did at 25! Post menopausal - on bioidentical hormone therapy, Have had 2 plastic surgeries that I feel totally unapologetic about, Have lost 30 pounds and am more fit and healthy than I have ever been. I'm constantly in search of spiritual, health, and personal development. I want to share and learn from other women, I want to have fun, I want to talk about all the things that are embarrassing and that women of a certain age shouldn't talk about - yea right! I want to dress like a rock star, wear crazy makeup and be totally age INAPPROPRIATE. I want to do what it takes to look and feel energetic and young and I'm not ashamed of that. I'll work out, I'll eat right, I'll take supplements and hormones and I'll get plastic surgery, wear makeup and wear a the sexiest most smokin hot lingerie I can find So tune in if you want to see more - check your assumptions of who a 50 year old woman is at the fucking door - because this is not that blog!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Catching up is hard to do!

It has been such a long time since I posted to my little blog. I truly miss it. Mainly because I like looking back over the year and seeing what was going on a few months ago. I want to get back with it but I still worry that my time might be too limited. Today I have felt a little down on myself. I feel like there is just not enough time in the day to be the awesome cool Mom, crafter, blogger, beautifully decorated house, social planner, photographer, picture poster, Valentine's day card sender, in shape, healthy perfect person that I seem to see everyone else being and still work a high pressure job all day, get dressed, get make up on etc... I could go on but you probably get the idea. What got me started off on this path today was a blog that I stumbled upon whose owner is a Mom of 3, all of her posts are of her beautiful crafts and cooking that her perfectly dressed clean kids are helping her with in her clean kitchen and all her pictures look like professional photography. I just looked at that and thought "how the hell". I have one little baby and I can barely make it out the door to work everyday and sometimes don't check my e-mail for a week and have 2 months of Kenji's pictures that have never even been taken off the camera!I haven't even started his baby book! I have even lost track of exactly down to the week how old he is. I mean I have a ballpark idea...
Anyway as much as I bitch and moan I am the luckiest woman alive to have Kenji and he is so much fun and such a joy. I know I have to remember to curb this feeling bad about myself thing because I don't ever want him to get that, and I wish I could get rid of it!
Anyway the blog did at least inspire me to try to get back with my modest little blog that I love. Over the next few weeks I am going to try to post some of the highlights from the last few months to catch us up.
So in recent news: Kenji has learned to crawl and has also learned to stand up in his crib! Last weekend he would not go to sleep and was crying so hard he was hyperventilating. I looked in the monitor and he was standing up in his crib about to throw himself over the edge! I jumped out of bed and ran down the hall and slipped and busted my butt on the floor, so I was crying, Kenji was crying, Brian woke up and was in a panic because everyone was hysterical. After that Kenji would not go to sleep and stayed up playing till 3 in the morning then went to sleep and woke up at 6! So we have been having some sleeping challenges lately. He is LOVING Cheerios and when I get the box out he sits straight up in his high chair and wiggles like crazy in anticipation. He loves to play with Brian under the blankets and laughs and laughs! We are all getting terribly sick of winter and I am fantasizing more than usual about summer this year. I think it will be such a fun summer because we will be able to put KG in a bike trailer and bike, and he will love having a kiddie pool, and oooooohhhhhh Summer just sounds soooooooooo goooooooood right now! Being cooped up every weekend with a bored baby is NO FUN!!!!!
Well I lie, a lot of times it is fun hahahaha, because he is a fun boy!





So for this post's flash back I am going back to September when we went to Arboretum to see the fall colors with Donnete, Phil, and Leander. I am so happy because Donette and Phil are getting married this June and I am so soooooo happy for them!
We had a little mishap on this trip because we were taking pictures with Leander and Kenji and Kenji slipped out of Leander's grasp and fell off the wagon! He was only 4 months old and he has already fallen off the wagon, poor boy! But he was ok and barely cried even though poor Leander was a little upset. Overall it was a wonderful day and so worth remembering here.