My name is Robin. I live to create - anything I can do with my hands and my head. I'm a messy creator - an imperfect creator who loves beauty and aesthetic with a real edge. This isn't a blog about perfection - its a blog about the beauty in real life - the small triumphs and epic failures - trying to get homework done with a tired 5 year old after a 12 hour day and still getting a smidge of weaving in before the crash. Figuring out what the dream is when you finally realize its not the house and the car. Its about not letting the years get the best of you and cherishing all that you love in life. Mostly its just a place for me to put all the things that I love and that inspire me.
Because I am not thrilled with the state of things right now and biking makes my mood a little better. The adoption stuff is frustrating me this week. A couple of weeks ago LSS was pulling the profiles of their families that are not in the book yet for a birth mother who wanted to see additional profiles. So we found out we were not one of the families she narrowed down to. So, I know this was the first person to even look at our profile, but we are also not getting very far with networking and I am as always feeling that I am not working hard enough at the networking. I haven't been able to get our profile posted on Parent Profiles yet and some of the free site I have tried are just a mess. I can't help but worry that we will have a hard time finding a match because we have weird jobs, or because we don't seem stable or traditional enough. But I do want someone who really likes us and who we are. I just hope it doesn't take 2 years to find that person! Anyway, I can't seem to help wondering what it was that put us in the out pile. So because I get so down thinking about bad things here are the good things: We are now only 4th on the waiting list! According to our adoption worker we have minimal adjustments to do on our profile. I am crocheting peeps at the moment and will post pics, we are going to the movies and dinner on Sat with Jomanda (Amanda and Joe) and it is light enough after work to ride bikes, Yay!